I came online to post this....

and got started watching Supernatural convention videos. I've really got to get hold of myself, you know?

Anyway, I've gotten involved with the charity knitting, as I mentioned the other day. Here's proof of square:

I've been working on it all day to keep my nerves in check. It helps, when I'm knitting. I put it down and the freak outs begin again.

I just want to say I do not understand it. I've had surgery before -- major surgery -- and wasn't as wangsty as I'm getting over this stupid wisdom tooth thing. I just took a klonopin, people. Actual sedatives. I knew if I didn't I wasn't going to get any sleep tonight, that's for sure and certain. I. Do. Not. Understand.

And I never understood the generalized anxiety people have about dentistry, either, until today. I mean, I know part of my anxiety is the helpful "information" video they force you to watch which lists all the possible complications of wisdom tooth extraction, up to and including death. Yeah, 'cause I needed you to make me more paranoid than I already am! Sheesh. But still, this is extreme.

Ah, well. By this time tomorrow, I'll be home with ice packs on my cheeks, a bit sheepish that I got so wound up over something so easy. I'm not doing the work, after all. That's my dentist's job. I'm just lying back, relaxing under the force of IV sedation, getting a nap in edgewise.

In other news, my mother took me to my nephew's first football game as a middle schooler tonight. He didn't play for much of the game, but he started. He's such a nice boy, though. I worry his killing instinct isn't strong enough for school football. The minors, yeah, but playing with the big boys.... Sigh. Ah, well. He'll shake out properly in a few games.

It was nice to get out, though, get to the game. Took my mind off things for a while. The evening was muggy but the wind was high and we sat in the shade so it wasn't too terribly unpleasant. I got some knitting in, on the square. I enjoyed it. Well, until the metal bleachers made my butt go numb, but overall, a pleasant way to spend the evening.

Now I must go fit my dental appliance -- I'm a night time tooth grinder, and I want to have a chewer molded to my teeth before I get the work done tomorrow. I kept putting it off and putting it off, but I think the time has come to fit my appliance.

I hate working with boiling water!